Anson got selected for the Walla Walla Little League 11U All Stars team.

It’s a huge honor, as he had to be nominated by his coach and then voted on by the other coaches to make the team. It’s a big reflection of his hard work and effort this season, and I’m so very proud of him. What a kid!

And as the teams were announced yesterday, I realized that several of Anson’s peers and friends that were on the All Stars team with him last year weren’t selected for the team. And instead of being overwhelmed with pride and excitement, I started to feel anxious and stressed about those families and their kids.

I felt bad about other kids not making the team instead of feeling thrilled for my own kid.

I almost told Anson not to make a big deal out of being an All Star.

I was practicing apology speeches in my head for the next interaction I have with the other parents.

What?!

And I realized this morning as I was writing my thoughts about this situation that I do this for my own accomplishments too. In fact, I might be subconsciously holding myself back from the levels of success I ultimately dream of and am capable of because I don’t want those around me to feel bad.

The very obvious and somewhat ridiculous way I feel about Anson’s success and his friends’ not experiencing it has revealed to me some work I have to do on myself. To do my best and go for big goals because that’s my purpose as a soul, and that it isn’t my job to worry about what others around me are working on or achieving.

Are there any All Star moments you are apologizing for today?